the gate to the forgotten world

thank you, I shall try my hardest!

Hehe, your welcome!

Well, school ius nearing the end of it's seconbd week. Now to say all the things I should have been updating on:

the test wenty well. I think. I can't remember......

My new tech teacher is so cool! We're learning graphic design, which is going to be sooooooooooooo ghelpful to someone like me.

Roads patrol inh the rain is one thing: horrible.

It also sucks to love swimming and not being allowed because your sick >.<


Anywho, rthat's enough about the evil nightmare school. oh, wait, I'[m also learnbing Indonesian.

okay, I'm allowewd chocolate again, yay! Alo, I've become obsessed with Count Cain/Godchild. Blame my dear Onee-chan.

Now, here's a song I wrote (I'll also have a part of tyhe poem):

Soing first:

Most nights
I hate sleeping
and the tyhe others
I wake alone
you are
bound to my breathing
and I'll ever
let you go


It's been twelve
long months
since you
disappeared
left me
and your absence
has left me
really scared
The rivers and the seas
they all wake
beside me
but they leave
and all I feel
is my waking tears

I wake up
in this world
that does not want me
wake up
in a world
that should not have me
I do not
belong
in this world
all alone
I awake
to these fresh new tears

The cold is my breath
and the warmth
is my screams
the sounds I hear
are distant and
fading
I can no longer pretend
that this world is not the end
and all I feel
is my waking tears

I freeze
in the cold
that is my lost soul
I freeze
in the place
that does not want me
I can't live
can't sing
cannot be anything
I awake
to these fresh new tears

All alone~
cannot fly away
no where left to stay
nothing left to say
when I cry
there's no one here to stop me
no one left to find me
all there is
is these awaking tears~

I wake up
in this world
that does not want me
wake up
in a world
that should not have me
I can't live
can't sing
cannot be anything
I awake
to these fresh new tears

I freeze
in the cold
that is my lost soul
I freeze
in the place
that does not want me
I do not
belong
in this world
all alone
I awake
to these awaking tears

awaking tears

all alone

awaking tears

where have you gone?

these awaking tears

poem second:

The cold chills my spine
and makes me cough
and I shiver
these conditions make me rot

I turn around and in the mirror
I see a face
beside
mine
I scream and shout as ghostly hands
reach out and touch me

Well. It is the end of the third week of school.

I have now become closer to my friend whom is one of my best friend's twin sister and has always been my friend but now she's in my class so yeah....

anywho, we are seriopusly bonding over our pasion for Twilight. As I am with another of my friends, though this friend is the only one who can see that Carlisle is kinda curte (kinda? More MAJOR)

But she still loves Edwartd,. whom is actually closely followed by Jasper.

She also calls Alice Alison. ?This was one of the conversations we all had today:

"Oh my gosh, _________ is acting so hyper, 'I could almost swear that she's Alison"
"ALICE!!!!"
"Who cares?"
"WE DO!!!!"
"Okay, okay. Alice, Alice, Alice, Alice, Alice, Alice, Alixce. Think I['ve got it. Anyway..............."

Ah, the screams of fangirls.

Now, my addiction for Carlisle Cullen/Peter Facenalli(or however you spell his last name >.<) is fgrowing. A lot.

I LOVE THE MOVIE CARLISLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And the book Carlisle, but the movie Carlisle is way to perfect.

And maybe it's just me, but can anyone see Subaru in him? I ca, I mean, they both are way too kind hearted and both despise the thought of even harming someone else. And they don'tghuirt wityhout an extremely good reason.


Sorry, rambling ^^;;;

Now, more of the poem. If you don't like it, I won'ty post it. It's just that simple.

The touch came and went
and I shivered from the cold elictricity it sent
Adrenaline pulsed and in the movemnt of one
I was racing up the stairs and into my bedroom
before any damage to my mind was done

I jumped into bed
and switched of the light
and lost my mind
to the dreaming night

Ah, and happy birthday to the ever wonderful Sumeragi twins!

LOL! It sounds like you two are having lots of fun. LOL!

yes, fun fun fun

Hehe, that is very good then. XD

Well, my illness seems to like torturing me..... it has gotten worse, instead of better, and it is driving me MAD

And I have now been announced as obsessed witgh Peter Fainelli. (Who can blame me?)

I'm currebntly trying very hard to watch his tv series 'Fastlane'. I am of course, not succeeding, seeing as I can only find two episodes....

So if anyone knows where I can watch 'Fatlane' Onhline, I shall be very grateful if you tell me.

Poem time.....

When I wake
there's snow on my bed
and water on my head

It is now night
I slept though the day
but the snow is still falling
and the lights are now gray

I shall now make an entry before beddie byes.

I am......depressed

I am still feeling extremely ill, and this week my teacher decided to add fitness to the morning, and even though I'm techincall NOT ALLOWED to do it, I am forced to do so.

My glasses snapped. A leg came off. So all this morning and last night I had to go around with no glasses. Headaches wre ensured and came.

There was a power cut all through the town and all the work I had written was lost.

And about and hour ago, I stood on a nail. An old, rusty nail.

And to top it off: I'VE GOT WRITER'S BLOCK *whimpers*

Which is the reason why there is no poem today, I'm sorry.

Poor Subby-chan *hugs* Hope you feel better soon

*returns hug* That makes two of us

now, I just need to say this before it disappears: Twilight is a circus

Alce and Esme are accrobats
Emmet is a grizzly bear
Edward is a dog trainer
Jacob, Seth, Leah, Sam, etc etc are the dogs
Rosalie is a lion tamer
Bella is a clown
Jasper is a.........I'm not to sure
And Carlisle is the ringmaster!!

Anyone I've missed ot or I need to change, tell me

oh Subaru, I'm so sorry you are having a bad day...

I hope your foot gets better, along with everything else that is happening too you. Get well soon. (and new glass's too)

I'm sorry this is late, but I hope your foot gets better soon too. It's never fun to have an injured foot.

no, it's not

Alright, everything's good or bad and it's driving me crazy!! @.@

Well, I won an awar at school for top of my year..........

There was house tugf of war and we won *cheers*

I've hurt my little toe.......and it hurts ^^;;;

Now, I am in love with a manga that freaks me out..... GHOST HUNT FOREVER!!!!!!!!!! Even though uit freaks me out

anyway, I have a song to share with you:

With one more beath
together, forever
we hear the souls sleeping
with one more heart
that shines above
we can be apart but still

we dream together


One more time in a lonely world
with nothing but the sea
I feel the touch of your kind hand
see your smile that you keep for me

And with one touch I'm soaring
above the spirits below
and with one more smile
I'm soaring soaring above

I get to hold your heart

With one more beath
together, forever
we hear the souls sleeping
with one more heart
that shines above
we can be apart but still

Without a soul
we're empty
and you're my soul
and with one more breath
with one more dream

I'll win you back


Once more I'm drifting along
running in a dream
you reach up your hand
and I grab it til the end
you call out my name
but you
dis
ap
pear

And then I am alone
thouigh I am surrounded
and you are stuck in your troubled sleep

wake from your dreams

With one more dream
soaring, flying
please once more breathe
for me

With one more heart I can see
this is eternity
and your still sleeping
and I can't see you

in my dreams

dreaming

dreaming

come back

dreams weren't created for nightmares

For one more time
I am all alone
I look up
there you are, amongst the snow~

With one more beath
together, forever
we hear the souls sleeping
with one more heart
that shines above
we can be apart but still

Without a soul
we're empty
and you're my soul
and with one more breath
with one more dream

soaring, flying
please once more breathe
for me
With one more heart I can see
this is eternity
and your still sleeping
and I can't see you

One more dream
One more song
One more Time
Please breathe

Once more

That is awesome that you got the award. Congratulations! :)

Yay for winning the tug of war! Whee!

That is a cool song.

*cheers*

Thank you

Hehe, you're welcome. :)

can you guess who the song is about?

Um... is it about Naru-chan? ^-^;;

Naru-chan and Mai from volume 8 onwards

Yay! I so need to read more Ghost Hunt! Naru x Mai seems like such a cute pairing to me. XD

Ooh, congrats, Subby-chan! The peom/song sounds very good!

thank you

SCHOOL IS OVER FOR THE TERM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm going u[ to my brother's for the night on Sunday but I'll still be able to go on the forum which is awesomeness. *nods*

My liking to Ghost Hunt has spiked intio a full blown obsession. Now, who shall fall into my wrath?

Ok, now for bad stuff........

I hurt my back. It is painful. I swear, fate is out to get me.

For some reason, I feel like I'm in a trance. I feel........ghostly. Liuke I'm transparent. I have no idea why, though.

Actually, while I am currently typing this, my grandma is about to get taken to hospital. She fell over her nebuliser and hurt hersel, so I'm all alone... Therefore I have two reasosn to freak out. Wait, three. It's nearly nighttime.

I'm going to put a very angsty poem in now..........

falling through the last night
I wish I may, I wish I might
and the stars will break the last time.

I try my hardest to not fall
but what can I do, at the end of it all?
The world comes closer, and I let out a scream
crash into the world, and break my dream.